Bittersweet

Dear Angel Baby,

Today we are having the baby shower for your little sister – my rainbow baby. After we found out we were pregnant with you last summer, I dreamed of my baby shower. How I’d have this big round belly and be surrounded by family and friends that have been there for mommy and daddy along the way throughout both of our lives – and soon to be for you also.

But God had a different plan. So today, 13 months after we said goodbye to you, I’m getting ready to go to the baby shower to celebrate this life I have growing inside of me. It’s so bittersweet. I’ve waited so long but at the same time it seems so unfair that I couldn’t have one for you.

Deep in my heart I’ll always have that sad place an think about everything we couldn’t share together. But for Baby A, I won’t let it jade me because she is the rainbow we searched for after all the tears we shed for you. But just know today, when smiling and laughing with the family, that I miss you. Even if I never met you.

Love,
Mommy

Comments

  1. Christy says

    I love you, MeAnne, and look forward to spending the day with you. Darn you for making me cry already. Thank you for being so open and sharing your life with so many. Today is tough for many reasons and yet wonderful and beautiful at the same time. Embrace the happy while paying tribute to the road that has brought you to this point. I love you.

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